Things I have been up to
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teddywolfIt's been a while since I last posted what's going on.
Let's see... kids are managing. I have not had much success in feeding my son before the bus arrives, but I have been able to keep him on his regimen of morning medicines. More importantly, with some guidance he has gotten to the point where he will pick out his own clothes, clean himself up, get dressed, and get on the bus all by himself. I do have to prod him to start the process, and occasionally in the middle, but he's nearly to the point of getting himself ready by himself. He's mostly letting his sister drive a lot of the interaction in the house and is willing to be quiet. Since it's the quiet ones you want to look out for, I make sure I let him know when I appreciate him being good when he is quiet and good.
My daughter keeps fighting with me over going to school. I dearly hope she gets accepted to Solomon Schecter for three very important reasons: it's a very good school, she'd no longer be learning about mainstream Christian holidays in school (oy), and it will no longer be my job to wrestle her out the door. Well, maybe she'll decide she loves school so much that she gets herself ready. She can do that now when she wants to. It's just getting her to want to that's the trouble. Fighting with her takes a lot of mental energy, especially when I am trying to avoid yelling. And lest you think I should not yell at her--which, I may add, I generally do not want to do--a morning when she does not do at least three of yell, hit, spit, stick her tongue out at me, fight over getting dressed, and fight over using the toilet is a very rare weekday morning. It's all six more often than I really care to think about.
I was in a show the first couple of weekends in April. I am not as sanguine about my performances this time around--I missed a line one performance, fumbled over my words very briefly in a dramatic monologue in another--but I think I generally did a good job. Of course, with a show it's not all about you. It's about the troupe and the overall performance. I was not the announcer this time. While I had a lot of fun not being the announcer, well... our announcer did her best. *sigh* Anything I say will sound catty, which I don't mean to be. She tried, and she practiced, and... well, I think that if all I'm offered are announcer roles I'll just take 'em, at least for the next year.
Speaking of roles, the upcoming summer show will be a Sherlock Holmes adaptation. They have already pre-cast Holmes and Watson. I noticed they have a separate announcer, but I don't know if that's a matter of separating out the introspection parts of Watson or just doing the intro and outtro. I wanted a shot at Watson. *ponder* I have done no fewer than twenty distinct voices for PMRP, including one-line roles, background bits, announcer voices, characters, characters of characters, both staged and recorded. Maybe they want my range for character roles.
Lord help me, I'm pondering a turn in a director's chair--if they ever let me, that is. I should do more work on my written pieces.
As for me...? I've been doing some job counseling with Jewish Vocational Services of Boston. The woman I worked with, A. M., suggested I should look at resources for people with disabilities. I'm trying to find out where my old IEPs might have ended up. If there's a diagnosis in there that would qualify me for disability I will be surprised, but it will at least lend impetus to me getting a full neuropsych work-up. I'm working on voice-work, looking for work, and otherwise trying to keep the house going. I finally dealt with the gunk build-up in front of our stove, something the housecleaners kept not doing. I also vacuumed our room for the first time in mumble. You know, I shed a lot.
I'm getting back in the swing of things with general household duties, but I admit my heart is not really in it. The dishes will be the end of me, I can tell.
Socially I feel half-hermit. During the week when my wife and kids were out I mostly stayed home and relaxed. I didn't make it to most of the post-show dinners or the end-of-show cast party. I felt out of it downstairs in the green room, but I realize that's mostly me being me and feeling shy and awkward. I haven't had much in the way of social invites except when I haven't had time. Timing, not good.
The shy and awkward part also has something to do with somebody terminating LJ exchange with extreme prejudice. That person's perception of me is so at odds with my own self-image that it shocked me--described among other things as abusive and manipulative, and those are possibly some of the milder descriptors made by said person. At the same time, said person refused to engage with me further except with great hostility. I've said it before and I'll say it again: if I have a problem, people need to tell me what they see instead of assuming I know. Yeah, I have ego; no, I don't like thinking of myself as a bad person. But I have made changes based on honest critical feedback before. It can and will happen again. I have not brought it up much as I do not want to foment drama, but the exchange literally left me shaken and sick to my stomach for a couple of days.
It is time for me to cook a chicken and get my stomach out of knots. And no, not to do with the last paragraph.
Let's see... kids are managing. I have not had much success in feeding my son before the bus arrives, but I have been able to keep him on his regimen of morning medicines. More importantly, with some guidance he has gotten to the point where he will pick out his own clothes, clean himself up, get dressed, and get on the bus all by himself. I do have to prod him to start the process, and occasionally in the middle, but he's nearly to the point of getting himself ready by himself. He's mostly letting his sister drive a lot of the interaction in the house and is willing to be quiet. Since it's the quiet ones you want to look out for, I make sure I let him know when I appreciate him being good when he is quiet and good.
My daughter keeps fighting with me over going to school. I dearly hope she gets accepted to Solomon Schecter for three very important reasons: it's a very good school, she'd no longer be learning about mainstream Christian holidays in school (oy), and it will no longer be my job to wrestle her out the door. Well, maybe she'll decide she loves school so much that she gets herself ready. She can do that now when she wants to. It's just getting her to want to that's the trouble. Fighting with her takes a lot of mental energy, especially when I am trying to avoid yelling. And lest you think I should not yell at her--which, I may add, I generally do not want to do--a morning when she does not do at least three of yell, hit, spit, stick her tongue out at me, fight over getting dressed, and fight over using the toilet is a very rare weekday morning. It's all six more often than I really care to think about.
I was in a show the first couple of weekends in April. I am not as sanguine about my performances this time around--I missed a line one performance, fumbled over my words very briefly in a dramatic monologue in another--but I think I generally did a good job. Of course, with a show it's not all about you. It's about the troupe and the overall performance. I was not the announcer this time. While I had a lot of fun not being the announcer, well... our announcer did her best. *sigh* Anything I say will sound catty, which I don't mean to be. She tried, and she practiced, and... well, I think that if all I'm offered are announcer roles I'll just take 'em, at least for the next year.
Speaking of roles, the upcoming summer show will be a Sherlock Holmes adaptation. They have already pre-cast Holmes and Watson. I noticed they have a separate announcer, but I don't know if that's a matter of separating out the introspection parts of Watson or just doing the intro and outtro. I wanted a shot at Watson. *ponder* I have done no fewer than twenty distinct voices for PMRP, including one-line roles, background bits, announcer voices, characters, characters of characters, both staged and recorded. Maybe they want my range for character roles.
Lord help me, I'm pondering a turn in a director's chair--if they ever let me, that is. I should do more work on my written pieces.
As for me...? I've been doing some job counseling with Jewish Vocational Services of Boston. The woman I worked with, A. M., suggested I should look at resources for people with disabilities. I'm trying to find out where my old IEPs might have ended up. If there's a diagnosis in there that would qualify me for disability I will be surprised, but it will at least lend impetus to me getting a full neuropsych work-up. I'm working on voice-work, looking for work, and otherwise trying to keep the house going. I finally dealt with the gunk build-up in front of our stove, something the housecleaners kept not doing. I also vacuumed our room for the first time in mumble. You know, I shed a lot.
I'm getting back in the swing of things with general household duties, but I admit my heart is not really in it. The dishes will be the end of me, I can tell.
Socially I feel half-hermit. During the week when my wife and kids were out I mostly stayed home and relaxed. I didn't make it to most of the post-show dinners or the end-of-show cast party. I felt out of it downstairs in the green room, but I realize that's mostly me being me and feeling shy and awkward. I haven't had much in the way of social invites except when I haven't had time. Timing, not good.
The shy and awkward part also has something to do with somebody terminating LJ exchange with extreme prejudice. That person's perception of me is so at odds with my own self-image that it shocked me--described among other things as abusive and manipulative, and those are possibly some of the milder descriptors made by said person. At the same time, said person refused to engage with me further except with great hostility. I've said it before and I'll say it again: if I have a problem, people need to tell me what they see instead of assuming I know. Yeah, I have ego; no, I don't like thinking of myself as a bad person. But I have made changes based on honest critical feedback before. It can and will happen again. I have not brought it up much as I do not want to foment drama, but the exchange literally left me shaken and sick to my stomach for a couple of days.
It is time for me to cook a chicken and get my stomach out of knots. And no, not to do with the last paragraph.
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Date: 2013-04-25 08:33 pm (UTC)